Okay, I don't even know where to start with this blog. I don't even know if I'm ever going to show this to anyone who knows me but I'm just going to use it as an online diary. So if what I write makes no sense...or has stupid typos and awful grammar then that's why. There may be a time when I come on here to rant and I don't want to have to worry about silly things like my spellings during those moments. (I'll try and make it readable though haha)
I'm going to use this blog to try and vent the frustations that come hand in hand with having anxiety. In my bad moments I'll try and come on here to explain how I'm feeling, how anxiety feels and hopefully it will keep my mind focussed on something and help relieve some negative emotions. Obviously I won't be near my laptop at all times so I plan to write things on my notes on my phone, and then post on here when I'm able to.
I'm also gonna post when I'm having a good day, or when I accomplish something new. Cause I don't want it all to be doom and gloom :)
Like I said, this is basically going to be MY online diary and whilst I know it'll be public, I hope people will appreciate that these are my direct, personal feelings and anxiety comes in all 'shapes and sizes' - it varies between individuals so I'd appreciate it if you read these posts with sensitivity and understanding.
There may be times when I write on here during some of my hardest moments so some posts are likely to be pretty depressing so I'm gonna put this out there - if you're after a happy, positive blog... you are very far from where you need to be right now.
I hope this may help anyone suffering with anxiety too, although as selfish as this sounds that isn't currently my main purpose of this blog. If I do help someone then that's amazing - but this is all very new to me so I can't guarantee I'll be any help. If you have anxiety and you are reading this... I know, it sucks. But I do want you to know that you aren't alone.
A bit of info about me:
- My name is Savannah, I'm 21 years old.
- I've been to university and I now have a job.
- I was diagnosed with generalised anxiety this year (2015), however the more I learn about it the more I realise I have struggled with anxiety for a while.
- I am on medication for anxiety.
- I have other health issues which do cause me stress - which likely adds to my anxiety, but I won't be discussing the details of those health issues on here for personal reasons. At least I don't intend to. So if I ever refer to 'being in physical pain' I assure you that it's nothing life threatening, it's something I've had for some years now and I'm still undergoing treatment. But sometimes I do get very anxious about my physical health. Just clearing that up for you.
This honestly feels so weird to write this haha, I sound so damn serious but I promise I'm not a miserable person all the time! It's just gonna take some getting used to opening up.
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